Hello ladies and gents,
I went to my second wsp show for the Nye run in Nashville. I went the 30th and 31st. I knew the weekend was going to have some temptations with drugs and alcohol because of the people I was with, the places we went and the things around us. I was torn between staying sober or drinking/drugging that weekend. I have been battling sobriety for a long time. Sober for some months, then back to week binges with mostly drinking/cocaine. But I am not afraid to try and do anything. Once I arrived to my hotel, it didn't take more than 1 hour before I was intoxicated with alcohol and drugs. That continued pretty much all the way until Saturday morning when I woke up in my hotel room lost, confused and depressed. I wish I would have saw Friday nights show sober. I enjoy the energy that wsp brings to the city, venue and it's fans. Of course, not everyone will be sober at a wsp show, but I want to be a member of people who go see an incredible band and that guide and help people with drugs and alcohol or whatever addiction. I did not know about this membership until I returned back to Philadelphia on Sunday night. I wanted to see if there was any kind of organization for drugs and alcohol, and I found the gateway. I was very happy and grateful. To wrap up my weekend details, I decided to not do any drugs or alcohol for the 31st, but boy was I tired, hungover and upset. I did all my best to stay positive and go enjoy what I came here to do. Go listen to great music in a sober state and meet nice and friendly people and spread peace and love. Second night actually was better even though I was too hungover to dance as much Friday night, but it felt remarkable to not be impaired and I realized that I can stay sober at a wsp show, or any show for that matter.
I had a 12 hour ride back on Sunday to think over my decisions and really focus on what I want to do with this problem. I want to stop. I want to be sober. I want to be happy. But I still want....(cont. next page)